woah.

this whole day. i was trying to be positive. trying to be happy. trying to run away from all the things in my life that seem to just make it fall down and down and down. and, i think i found it. the bible was such a relief to me, such a relief, that there were so many verses that encourage you through all the hard times, all the pain, all the suffering, because you're trying to do the right thing, trying to obey gods command. That god has a reason for all the name calling, all the loneliness, all the sadness. because its all part of his will to make you set apart and sanctified for him, all a part of having a strong christian walk with him. ya know? and thats what ive been praying for. so i thought, why would i be sad if god is fulfilling my prayers? God is such a faithful and awesome god. and i just thank him that i have the privilege to have been a recipient of his blessing, a recipient of the sanctification for him, a recipient of being able to live a holy life for him. but sometimes, its so. hard. Read Romans 8. its really encouraging. and i remember i memorized it a year ago. actually, i just recently finished the saga of memorizing romans 5-8. with some intervals in between. but the problem is, the most recent ones that ive memorized was romans 5-6. and i memorized romans 7-8 quite long ago. but anyways, from romans 5-8, there's some encouraging word. 2 Timothy 1. Also. The beginning verses of James 1. Yeah.
so i found a lot of encouraging in that.