yeah so i was supposed to post times/results right????
and prelims was the last meet of the season. on one hand, im so relieved and happy and totaaaaaallly chilllled out cause no more stressful practices with rudy O:
on another hand, im sad. only 2 more years of track. little to no potential. havent made it anywhere. and i just love running so much and deep inside i never really wanted season to end.
and on the last hand (never heard anyone say that one before....patent pending?? justkidding. but seriously, if you steal the phrase that i coined....not cool.), im scared that imma get reallllly out of shape offseason and never ever ever improve and suck a looot next year.
so i guess imma have to work hard offseason too? just not as hard, i guess. but nobody would work that hard unless if rudy was right there yelling at them.
anyway, ill shut up now and get to the even MORE insignificant part. but since this has been my time log since god knows when, here goes nothing.
mile: 5:33.44 PR whoooooooooooooo. by 10 seconds too. i guess its cause i kindasorta tried? and brendon pushed me.
and after the mile, i was feeling pretty sore and didnt know if i could run the 800. yeaaaaaaaaah but i didnt bone out. i ran the 800.
800: 2:28.18 whooooooooooooooooooo! broke 2:30 and PR'ed. (: made my day.
and i beat daniel for once :OOOOOO lol beat him by like .3 seconds hahahahahahah suckkks. i feel bad for him though....he didn't PR in the 400 or the 800. and he was really feeling bad after his 400 cause he wanted to break 60 so badly but he didnt. D:
but anywaysss, PR'ed in both events.
now the placing was pretty depressing.
34th place out of 44 people in the mile, and 22nd place out of 34 people in the 800. waoooooows. but yeah im happy. :)
great way to end season for me.
today was yogurtland fun run. :D best last practice of season?? ahahahahahahaha.
track/running takes my mind off a lot of things. and i love those long runs, like to regional. totally anti-stress. and though theres like....no scenery, its just relaxing and any crap that might've happened during the day totally just vanishes. its pretty magical.
and even during speed workouts or with rudy, all the pain and soreness is the only freaking thing you can think. the only words going through your mind are like "breathe in, breathe out", "plz dont die plz dont die plz dont die" , and "WTFRUDY WHYYYYYYYYY"
but yeah hahahaha. now seasons over and i have all this college crap that my moms throwing on me.
and she always says she doesnt put any pressure on me, but when you're starting to send me to academy and planning on sending me there all summer long, that kinda says something, doesnt it?
and when you say uci or ucsd are bad schools and that if i go there ill have no future....................................that you should at least get into berkeley........yeaaaaaaaaaah toooooooootally no pressure right?
and when you ask what all the other kids are doing and how many APs everyone else is taking and this that and the other......its really freakin killing me.
your expectations are too high. lower them a bit. please. nina and janice didnt have half as much pressure/competition as me. nina and janice had a real family. nina and janice were privileged and they had money to spend and they didnt have to worry about not being able to pay.
and then looking at everyone else around me im just like O: no effing waaaaaaaaay im getting anywhere my mom says i have to get into. i mean, bleeeeeeeh. we have crazy star athletes, crazy freakin geniuses, crazy musicians, crazy actors, singers, you name it. its a big world, im a small person, and chances are, that i wasnt born with any talent anyway. (and i am correct). so how am i supposed to shine?
im not good enough, mom. sorry to disappoint.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
meet+nightmare
so i shouldnt be posting but i have a lot to talk about.
still doesnt justify me posting.
anyways, first things first!
meet on wednesday=nooooooot bad. :)
PR'ed in the mile. 5:43 vs 5:50 from last time. beat an indian guy on the last 200 meters. kick felt good. indian guy congrats'd me afterwards. good sportsmanship. :D
no PR in the 800m though. D: 2:30 flat. i was hoping for at least a 2:29 (tie PR).....but its okay. twas windy yesterday...........though i shouldnt make any excuses. just drives me to train harder. but i passed someone on the last straightaway and that really pushed my kick :D
so yeaaaah that meet was kewls cause i passed people on the end and the kick felt awesome.
the steak i ate at home afterwards was awesome too. and my bed was just the comfiest (comfyest??)....most comfy thing i've ever lay/lie (GOSH I HATE THESE GRAMMATICAL TECHNICALITIES) on.
but i had a terrrrible dream that night. my sleep was really rejuvenating and i woke up a like 620 and i felt eneeeeergized but damn had a terrible nightmare.
so anyways.....what happened was....well all i remember is some specific parts. and i hate this thing about dreams where during the dream, it feels super scary, but then when you recall it, its not scary at all....and i also hate how i can never remember the full details about the dream, because if i could, i think it would seem a lot scarier.
so anyway, i thiiiiiink i was out with my sister and some of her friends (for some odd reason), and my mom stayed home. and then suddenly im back home and i recall some warning that i got that people would break into our house? (im really paranoid about that, btw..)....then i tell my mom? and we're standing in the kitchen....and we hear pounding on our garage. and i remember saying..."they're here....good thing they can't get in..." but then my moms like..."no, they'll find a way in..." and then she nervously points to like the chimney and these two demonic looking guys (they were pretty slender and they were dressed up in a clown outfit....except a really demonic clown outfit....and im trying to remember WHO they remind me of but i cant put a name to the faces...but they looked really scary and intimidating...D: it doesnt help that im scared of clowns D:).....then they jump down and tie us up in the kitchen and they go through our house and they jack all this stuff and they threatened us not to move and AHHHHHHHHH so scary.
but see, it didnt sound that scary, right? dreams suck. telling dreams suck more, because you're like, oh dang i had an epic scary nightmare and it doesnt even sound scary at all. -______________-
so im pretty surprised i got three comments last time. :O
and yes joe, im pretty aware that tumblrs prolly reaaaaaaaaaal popular, but i like this thing better . sorry D:
and yes everyone, i WILL kill myself next year.
OH! oh damn that was a good transition...but very inadvertedly. freaking moses OH didnt show up at the meet. i dont know if he quit track or what......BUT HE WASNT THERE >_> i need my revenge raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwrrrrrrrrr. im gonna hunt him down now. nooooooo justkidding im not like that.
but still....what a bummer :/
on another note, track seasons almost over. shucks. :/ disclaimer: the next thing imma say is kinda irrelevant, but if you really wanna get inside my head, then fine. but its more of a note/chastisement to myself so yeah. if you're interested, highlight it. idc.
and i feel like ive wasted half of this season training for the hurdles and i couldve been so much better at the 800/1600 (but ESP the 800) if i HADNT been slacked off and done the hurdles in the beginning of the season. but when i changed, i only had half a season to really push myself and improve, while the other half was thrown down the drain. :/ dangggg that sucks. just means i gots to work even harder next season/potentially offeason!?!?!? :O
but thats just my personal thoughts, pretend you never read it. (if you did)
i bet you still read it.
(or i bet nobodys readng this thing looooooool)
so yeah i guess im done. til the next meet!
as leslie chow said, "so long, gay boys!"
but you guys arent guy, so i should say "toodoloooooooo [expletiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive]"
although the way he said the last part was the funniest part of the whole statement.
or im just immature. whatever.
still doesnt justify me posting.
anyways, first things first!
meet on wednesday=nooooooot bad. :)
PR'ed in the mile. 5:43 vs 5:50 from last time. beat an indian guy on the last 200 meters. kick felt good. indian guy congrats'd me afterwards. good sportsmanship. :D
no PR in the 800m though. D: 2:30 flat. i was hoping for at least a 2:29 (tie PR).....but its okay. twas windy yesterday...........though i shouldnt make any excuses. just drives me to train harder. but i passed someone on the last straightaway and that really pushed my kick :D
so yeaaaah that meet was kewls cause i passed people on the end and the kick felt awesome.
the steak i ate at home afterwards was awesome too. and my bed was just the comfiest (comfyest??)....most comfy thing i've ever lay/lie (GOSH I HATE THESE GRAMMATICAL TECHNICALITIES) on.
but i had a terrrrible dream that night. my sleep was really rejuvenating and i woke up a like 620 and i felt eneeeeergized but damn had a terrible nightmare.
so anyways.....what happened was....well all i remember is some specific parts. and i hate this thing about dreams where during the dream, it feels super scary, but then when you recall it, its not scary at all....and i also hate how i can never remember the full details about the dream, because if i could, i think it would seem a lot scarier.
so anyway, i thiiiiiink i was out with my sister and some of her friends (for some odd reason), and my mom stayed home. and then suddenly im back home and i recall some warning that i got that people would break into our house? (im really paranoid about that, btw..)....then i tell my mom? and we're standing in the kitchen....and we hear pounding on our garage. and i remember saying..."they're here....good thing they can't get in..." but then my moms like..."no, they'll find a way in..." and then she nervously points to like the chimney and these two demonic looking guys (they were pretty slender and they were dressed up in a clown outfit....except a really demonic clown outfit....and im trying to remember WHO they remind me of but i cant put a name to the faces...but they looked really scary and intimidating...D: it doesnt help that im scared of clowns D:).....then they jump down and tie us up in the kitchen and they go through our house and they jack all this stuff and they threatened us not to move and AHHHHHHHHH so scary.
but see, it didnt sound that scary, right? dreams suck. telling dreams suck more, because you're like, oh dang i had an epic scary nightmare and it doesnt even sound scary at all. -______________-
so im pretty surprised i got three comments last time. :O
and yes joe, im pretty aware that tumblrs prolly reaaaaaaaaaal popular, but i like this thing better . sorry D:
and yes everyone, i WILL kill myself next year.
OH! oh damn that was a good transition...but very inadvertedly. freaking moses OH didnt show up at the meet. i dont know if he quit track or what......BUT HE WASNT THERE >_> i need my revenge raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwrrrrrrrrr. im gonna hunt him down now. nooooooo justkidding im not like that.
but still....what a bummer :/
on another note, track seasons almost over. shucks. :/ disclaimer: the next thing imma say is kinda irrelevant, but if you really wanna get inside my head, then fine. but its more of a note/chastisement to myself so yeah. if you're interested, highlight it. idc.
and i feel like ive wasted half of this season training for the hurdles and i couldve been so much better at the 800/1600 (but ESP the 800) if i HADNT been slacked off and done the hurdles in the beginning of the season. but when i changed, i only had half a season to really push myself and improve, while the other half was thrown down the drain. :/ dangggg that sucks. just means i gots to work even harder next season/potentially offeason!?!?!? :O
but thats just my personal thoughts, pretend you never read it. (if you did)
i bet you still read it.
(or i bet nobodys readng this thing looooooool)
so yeah i guess im done. til the next meet!
as leslie chow said, "so long, gay boys!"
but you guys arent guy, so i should say "toodoloooooooo [expletiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive]"
although the way he said the last part was the funniest part of the whole statement.
or im just immature. whatever.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
500!?
i have a few drafts here and there which count as posts, but it says this is post 500, although its really not.
anyway, im sure nobody even looks at this thing anymore. not even because im just that uncharismatic, but just because nobody even posts anymore. so thats also nice, talking to a dead audience. then no one will judge. :)
but what has been going on!?!?!? traccccck? yeah thatsthe only thing that comes to my mind. too bad i suck at it.
so anyway, i decided to switch baaaaaack to the events i loooooooove, thats riiiiiceeee....800 and 1600 woooooooot!
(partly becaue i epically failed at the hurdles....)
yeah, sooooo even thooooough i succcck, im back. :) and i realized doing the hurdles wasted a looooooot of time for me. sooooo out of shape. im still faster than i was when i was in shape last year, buti feeeeel really out of it :/
but last meet, PRed on both runs! 5:50 for the mile and 2:29 for the 800! yaaaaaay. but i doubt that times gonna go down......cause theres barely any more training time left in season...from now on its just meet after meet D: which means cram time!
andddd it just hit me that i practically threw away a season. i mean, sure, i PRed by 5 or so seconds on both events, buti couldve PRed by soooooo much more if i hadnt spent most of my training time on hurdles. that suckkkkks. so either i get a growth spurt=longer legs=automatically faster, or i have to work reeeeaaaaaallly hard next season. because i reaaaallly love running but i suck at it and its frustrating and i need to get better *&%(&$(&^%$
on a second note, im stoked for the next meet (i didnt say tomorrow because it might get postponed due to rain??).....first meet against oxford! not that i look down upon oxford as a team, but because of moses oh. remember that guy??? yeahhh must beat him this time. eheheheheheh :D
so 2 more years of track. D: pretty darn depressing. 2 more years of high school. more depressing. although im sure imma be reeeeeallly depressed next year, because of my schedule (shooooooot my transitioning skills are tiiiiiiiiiite)
so 5 APs WTF. yeaaaaah its been done, but i aint a genius (what im trying to say is, only geniuses do well under these types of circumstances). bleeeeeeh. apush, ap calc bc, ap chem, ap lang, ap french, and physics honors. 1st period OHNOES! QQ
speaking of apcalcbc, i like their shirts hahahahahah.
speaking of shirts/clothing affiliated with organizations, our warmups for track this year are so nice!
im running out of transitions so ill go straight into my next topic.
if i have one. i have to get cracking on homework now, so byes. what a disappointing 500th post. i might leave this thing for a very long time before i come back, although i may make a short post on my meet times just because.....this thing has been my track diary for the longest time, too.
ps, i was reading my posts and i sound like a dumb blond in every one of them. -_________- i probably sound like a dumb blond in this one too.
goal for next post: dont sound like a dumb blond.
anyway, im sure nobody even looks at this thing anymore. not even because im just that uncharismatic, but just because nobody even posts anymore. so thats also nice, talking to a dead audience. then no one will judge. :)
but what has been going on!?!?!? traccccck? yeah thatsthe only thing that comes to my mind. too bad i suck at it.
so anyway, i decided to switch baaaaaack to the events i loooooooove, thats riiiiiceeee....800 and 1600 woooooooot!
(partly becaue i epically failed at the hurdles....)
yeah, sooooo even thooooough i succcck, im back. :) and i realized doing the hurdles wasted a looooooot of time for me. sooooo out of shape. im still faster than i was when i was in shape last year, buti feeeeel really out of it :/
but last meet, PRed on both runs! 5:50 for the mile and 2:29 for the 800! yaaaaaay. but i doubt that times gonna go down......cause theres barely any more training time left in season...from now on its just meet after meet D: which means cram time!
andddd it just hit me that i practically threw away a season. i mean, sure, i PRed by 5 or so seconds on both events, buti couldve PRed by soooooo much more if i hadnt spent most of my training time on hurdles. that suckkkkks. so either i get a growth spurt=longer legs=automatically faster, or i have to work reeeeaaaaaallly hard next season. because i reaaaallly love running but i suck at it and its frustrating and i need to get better *&%(&$(&^%$
on a second note, im stoked for the next meet (i didnt say tomorrow because it might get postponed due to rain??).....first meet against oxford! not that i look down upon oxford as a team, but because of moses oh. remember that guy??? yeahhh must beat him this time. eheheheheheh :D
so 2 more years of track. D: pretty darn depressing. 2 more years of high school. more depressing. although im sure imma be reeeeeallly depressed next year, because of my schedule (shooooooot my transitioning skills are tiiiiiiiiiite)
so 5 APs WTF. yeaaaaah its been done, but i aint a genius (what im trying to say is, only geniuses do well under these types of circumstances). bleeeeeeh. apush, ap calc bc, ap chem, ap lang, ap french, and physics honors. 1st period OHNOES! QQ
speaking of apcalcbc, i like their shirts hahahahahah.
speaking of shirts/clothing affiliated with organizations, our warmups for track this year are so nice!
im running out of transitions so ill go straight into my next topic.
if i have one. i have to get cracking on homework now, so byes. what a disappointing 500th post. i might leave this thing for a very long time before i come back, although i may make a short post on my meet times just because.....this thing has been my track diary for the longest time, too.
ps, i was reading my posts and i sound like a dumb blond in every one of them. -_________- i probably sound like a dumb blond in this one too.
goal for next post: dont sound like a dumb blond.
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