so today was the LAST INSTRUCTIONAL DAY OF SCHOOL (as mr rosenberg put it). holy crap. freshman year is going down the drain. good/bad. its amazing how time flies so quickly. soon, we'll be seniors. when we're seniors, we'll be thinking, soon we'll be working. when we start working, we'll be thinking, soon, we'll be old and grow lotsa white hairs.
its amazing. and yet so. UGH. i kinda wish i could stop time...maybe even reverse it a little. im too chicken to face the future. its amazing, yet its scary. you know, it holds that...sorta intrigue, the mystery behind it? like in a scary movie, when the doors creaking. you're interested, you wanna see what happens, yet its so scary wanting to find out. the suspense kills you. bad analogy. because the future does not hold suspense. well kinda. its just...yeah. hahahaha. lame.
comps tomorrow. im slacking already. =) but thats okay. tomorrow's history. prolly gonna study a lil in brannen too. -________- at least free response wont count. :D
now, to a different subject. sorry, i have no transition. actually, i do.
speaking of the future, lets speak of the past. speaking of the past, lets speak of when we were lil kindergarteners. speaking of us being lil kindergarteners, lets speak of when we were sitting in class, and the teacher was lecturing us about "the golden rule." something about "doing unto others what you would have others do to you" well yeah, ive been thinking about that. and i noticed. that i havent been following it. and i think thats why as people get older, they get meaner, things get more wicked. like 1st graders are waaaaaaaaaaaaay nicer and more innocent than college students. fersure. and i guess ive lost sight of it too. seriously, like ive been thinking about the whole like thing about how everyone like teases the weird "gayness" or whatever, and how im offended, even when i know they're joking. but when i think about it, i joke around and hurt a lot of people too. like teasing them, i myself know that i dont mean it, but sometimes i wonder do they feel the same as me? do they take it seriously after an extended period of time? "do unto others what you would have others do to you." i think that answered it. i feel ive really lost sight of that rule.
and to anyone that i couldve hurt (this is really like not directed at anyone, because i do that teasing deal almost subconsciously), im sorry. im sorry for hurting you. for breaking the golden rule. im sorry for not doing to you what i would have done to me. and for that, im truly sorry.
im realizing what a big douche i am. :P
with progress comes realization, i guess.
2 comments:
YOUR NOT A DOUCHE. DONT SAY DOUCHE. cus douche is nasty >] after bio and crap.
and i tease people subconsciecnly too.
YAAY. for mean but not trying to be mean poeple :D
wow i just realized that everytime you repeat things a LOT of times O:
like everytime you try to say something like insightful its something that you like say a lot O:
keke love the cliches
and yea guys, we all tease people
but not all of us really mean it
and we aren't necessarily mean people, the difference is whether or not we actually take the time to ask ourselves how the other person feels
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