STAR? over?

sooo STAR testing was over today. and i feel like tomorrows gonna be d-d-d-d-death for everyone. just gon get bombarded w/ hw. whats worse is that i have a track meet. academy league prelims. yikes. only top 8 per event go to finals (so im not gonna make it into finals...so this is technically the last meet for me D:) no sweats yet...hopefully they come in tomorrow? or friday. preferably tomorrow. =)
so im kinda nervous for the meet. becauseee i reallyreallyreally wanna do well. i wanna break 2:30. :D i got 5 seconds off of 2:30 yesterday (2:35)...so hopefully the meet can subtract 6 seconds from that. ;D i dont really care about the mile...ill just blow that offf...i need to be readyreadyready. which reminds me...that i need to borrow somones jersey. mr mandalia is in allll my events. guhhhhhh so now whos jersey do i borrow? (i usu borrow jonathan's). yikes.
so yeah i guess im only nervous cuz of myself. because i dont wanna fail my own expectations. it sucks when that happens. when its yourself giving you the pressure. not your parents. not your teachers. not your coaches. you. and i know i shouldnt be this nervous if they're just goals..but maybe i just want it so bad..i dont wanna disappoint myself. the worst part is that it hurts the most when you fail yourself..failing your parents/teachers/coaches...not so much.
oh well. theres always next year to break 230. anddd the summer. and of course theres a buncha space in between for growth spurts. =) COME ALREADY!.
but anyways, i reallyreallyreally wanna break 230. so im gettin my headd in da game. i have a huge strategy. 1st lap=73/74 (chillll), then 2nd=76/77 (picck it up...its so hard to get a faster 2nd lap time than 1st....wtf)
anyways enough of this track talk or else theres gonna be a whole buncha people going "oooh he actually cares about track hes so serious about it." cough_______cough. seriously though, if you dont care, just join xc.
so im done with the pre-race jitters. figure..might as well be calm n relaxed...
so yeah. the 800 is really painful. the first lap is okay. but the second lap...man you just gotta keep pusshin and pushin. every last drop you got goes in. i like finishing dramatically with a nice little lean though. :D
yeah but seriously...second lap..when you're trying to sprint...it freakin hurts. but man. this is the last meet tomorrow. SO IM DOWNNN. imma give it my alll. plus i wanna break 230. :D

aiight so enough track stuff. on a different note. im freaking screwed. as well as everyone else in french II. you see, we have skits too. and our scripts are due tomorrow. NOBODY knows. at least i dont. yikes.
word of the day: yikes.
:P
so yeah. tomorrows gon be crazy...homework flyin all over the freakin place. scary stuff man. but gotta focus on track now. bye.
im so sorry that i wasted a whole post (and you, my awesomely cool reader's time) by talking about my goals for track and how im nervous and stuff. but thanks for everyone that still decided to read it. you guys are cool! =)
PS i found a new hobby. JUMP ROPING. its awesomely fun. and good exercise too. :D
PPS if you guys wanna come out n support, you can! its a spirit meet! but its okay if you cant. i know red cross banquet AND decorating school purple for relay for life thing. but if you have extra time and if you love track and love giving our class spirit points, head on out. when else do you get to see them hot short shorts on them muscualrio people like edward and raymond dang? and when else do you get to laugh at losers like me wearing short shorts. and when else do you get to see awesome people RUNNING!