im tired. and sick. tired and sick of life. i give up.

soooo yeah. my eye is only gonna get better in around 2-3 months. apparently its a chalazion...a bigger and longer lasting version of a stye. i could get it surgically removed, but thats a pain. but then again, to wait 2-3 months for it to go away is also a pain. very nice.
track season soon. def not feeling it. ugh im toooo slow now. D: and i know i should do something about it....but im lazy too. greaaaaaaaat. and all these new people are starting to intimidate me. and these new people who are really cocky are starting to annoy me. wonderful.


life is wonderful. and im hella sick of it. my health is dying. my vigor and strength and energy is dying. all the people/things i love are falling away from me. my willpower is dying. plus i feel like a steaming piece of poop. yay. hopefully winter break will fix me up. (: